I hate being sick. I HATE BEING SICK. What started out late Monday night as a sore throat has progressed to a full-fledged cold, complete with coughing, sneezing, watery eyes, and general exhaustion. The coughing really started last night, and I can tell this morning. I think I managed to sleep for all of three hours sometime last night. Have you ever gotten to the point where you’re so tired but you can’t sleep, so you start crying for no real reason? Yeah, that was me last night. I am not one of those people that handles being sick well. In fact, I handle it rather poorly. I whine and get needy and find myself in a poor mood. It’s not that I try to be that way, it just happens. I would like to be one of those people that doesn’t seem to be changed by anything, but painful coughing and sneezing and listlessness just puts me in a strange mood. I’ve been downing Halls like they are candy for the last 24 hours, and they still aren’t really doing any good. Ah well…enough complaining about that for now.
Other things in my life this week (in no particular order, of course):
It’s the week after Easter. For me, this week is tons busier than the week before Easter. Add to the usual larger offering and more attendance slips the fact that it’s the end of the month AND the end of the first quarter of the year, and here I am, up to my eyeballs in random stuff to do. At least I’ve been busy this week. That’s a good thing. I like to be busy, just not crazy I can’t think straight busy.
I’ve found myself falling more in love with Tim every day the last couple weeks. He is just such an amazing, Godly, strong, passionate man. I wish everyone who reads this could meet him, just so they would know more of what I was talking about. When I prayed that God would bring me someone, I had no idea that someone as amazing as Tim existed. I am one lucky girl, that’s for sure!!!! I know that God has something amazing planned for our lives and our future, and I can’t wait to see what happens. At the same time, I am filled with such joy and peace and loving every little moment we share together.
Our computers have been plagued by network problems this week. In fact, Easter was insane; the network crashed right before our 1st service, and it was only through a lot of work and struggles and frustration that we had ANY song lyrics or anything for the 11:00 service. Kudos to the guys that helped make it work again. I know they were frustrated, but God was still glorified during all the services. I’ve been trying to write a blog about my thoughts about people that only come to church two times a year, but haven’t been able to find the time. Look for that one in the near future.
I went to the CSF house last night to talk about EPIC. It was good, yet strange, to be there again. One of the things I always appreciated about CSF was Paul and his ability to find the newest and the best in modern worship. I was only there for two songs, but neither was familiar and both were amazing. I miss Paul leading worship; I miss his passion and his heart and his genuine love for God and for other people. I miss the community I had there at the CSF houses (which are now campus crusade houses). I miss knowing there were a couple dozen people that I could trust with every part of me, and they felt the same about me. Sometimes I even miss the drama of my Senior year. I know that community like CSF is a unique experience that not everyone will have and not everyone will keep forever. I also know I can find it again; it’s just a lot harder when it’s not built-in like it was in college. And hard because I work and worship at a church with 2500 other people on a regular basis.
So that’s a little about this week. Hope some of it makes sense through my medicine-induced stupor! I promise to write a more coherent blog entry in the near future!